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| Issue 34: | Sept. 2026 |
| Poem: | 392 words |
—Inspired by a painting by Jim Valvis,
Self-Portrait as a Prep School Llama*
Maybe you wouldn’t really think that about him. His suit’s pretty cool, with his red power tie, and he knows how to stand with subdued swagger, in front of his Rothko, hand in pocket, body neither too tense nor too relaxed, with his smile the right combination of casual warmth and wily cool; he looks like the kind of guy who shits daffodils and pisses Pisco Sours—the kind of guy who’ll probably parachute, in that suit, onto a street corner in Bangkok while holding a bottle of Bordeaux in his hand so he can drink it with some goat dumplings that he’ll buy from a cart, and he’ll leave a 10,000 baht tip for the frail man who runs the cart, and someone will video it all and post to Insta, and the whole thing will go viral without him ever having bothered to post it himself—because “you know, it’s not a big deal, I just had a craving, and here, have a dumpling—they’re outrageous!”—that kind of guy. You know? The kind of guy whose aura attracts fireflies and miniature flying unicorns, so that merely by standing at the edge of a garden party he can minimize, as if he’d flicked his manicured index finger down the edge of a screen, the story you’re about to tell, and which you’ve been practicing in front of a mirror, because parties make you feel like a sprig of mistletoe swept off the street in a pile of slush on January 2nd, and you wanted people to know that you do have a personality, kind of, somewhere. And so it doesn’t occur to you that when he was little he had a stutter and a caved-in chest, and girls and boys didn’t talk to him except to laugh at him, and so sometimes when he looks in the mirror he still sees a jackass, though other people see him more as some kind of exotic llama (a great investment.) And now I’m realizing that you’re looking at him and not really thinking any of that at all, just thinking that he’s alright and you’re alright and I’m alright, and so now I’ve got to say, I really feel like a giant jackass.
*The painting by Valvis was an ekphrastic prompt at Rattle online:
https://admin.rattle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/01/james-valvis.jpg
teaches English at St. Mary’s College of Maryland. He is a squad member of the podcast ThePoetrySpace_ and a poetry reader for Chestnut Review. His poems have appeared in Contemporary Haibun Online, Modern Haiku, ONE ART, Rattle, and Verse-Virtual among others; his fiction has appeared in Every Day Fiction, The Galway Review, and the anthology HOWL: New Irish Writing (2023 and 2024); and his work has been nominated for the Pushcart Prize.
⚡ Liars, haibun story by Brian O’Sullivan in MacQueen’s Quinterly (Issue 32, June 2026)
⚡ Five Poems by Brian O’Sullivan (see especially “The Hunter of Ostara” and “An Irish Malediction”) in Lothlorian Poetry Journal (9 April 2026)
⚡ Fall: sestina and commentary by O’Sullivan (in response to a Rattlecast prompt), posted to Rattle online (30 October 2023)
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